Life is Hard.....

All i can say is Life is Hard right now....thank goodness i am not in it alone!!! I have my Savior, Jesus, i have Roger my love and family and friends. But still life is hard, lately anyway! I truely dont mean to be down, but this is how i feel right now...and i just need to right it down!!! There are some highlights, Isaac is such a big boy now!! Going to school and pottytrained, sleeping most of the time, in his own bed!! Those are all great things!
Sometimes all i feel i can do is live and do make sure laundry is done, things are picked up and family is fed!! I am praying for clarity of mind, and what is next on this journey....We shall see!!

What can i say its been a looong time!!!

It has been a long time since i have written...lets see lots has happened including moving, missions trips,potty training, isaac is about to start preK 3years olds...ect....Well i guess things just got crazy and i dropped the ball with the blog!! Life is crazy and with a 3 year old it is crazier!!! Isaac has gotten sooo big...i cant believe he is 3 and a half and is starting school in august...it is scary and exciting to start school when all he has ever known is being at home with me. And while it will only be 3 days a week, to start, it is still hard LOL...:) Babies grow up all two fast!! It is so scary to hand my child over to someone i dont know and trust them to care for isaac...but it must be done and i am just hoping he does well and learns and makes freinds....so now i must go and sleep...i am soooo tired!!! Motherhood will do that to ya!! hahaha

The Chocolate Chip Cookies of Life....

Maybe this is silly, but i have had such a good time talking with old friends lately!! I truly loved some of them like sisters for sooooo many years....i am sure they know who they are!! They helped me through so many tough spots in my life....and understood things that my mom (even though she wanted to understand) couldn't. Mom don't think this is a stab toward u an any way... its not! You were and still are one of my best friends and i love you. I miss these friends and truly miss being silly when you aren't suppose to be and the ability to be serious with them when needed!! I just want to say Thank YOU!! Life is sometimes not pretty...life is really messy....and there were times that i questioned these friendships, but through it all i have grown and learned so much!! Friends truly are "the chocolate chip cookies of life!!" If it were not for them life would be so dull!! I know i am getting mushy....but i cant help myself right now....I only hope that Isaac will have friends that love him like a brother and make many memories together!!!

The truth about cat's and dog's....???

So, it has been a while since i have blogged...what can i say life happens!! I felt i must share this story or better yet a conversation roger and i had with isaac....so here it goes.......
isaac: "what is this? is it a tootsie roll?"
me: "i dont know where did you get it?"
isaac: "it was right here on the floor."
me: "let me see.....omg!!! it is poop!!"
isaac: "o"
me: "why is there poop on the floor??" (angrily)
isaac: "here is another one...."
me: "omg!!!" "what in the world?? when did you do this??"
isaac: "um.....i didnt.... there were dogs and cats running through here and they pooped!"
me: "dogs?"
isaac: "yes, yesterday dogs and cats ran through the room and pooped on the floor...."
me: isaac, cats and dogs did not run through the house yesterday and poop on the floor. You pooped in your pants and pulled it out of your pull-up...you are lying"
isaac: "no, cats and dogs pooped in here!!"
needless to say, those cats and dogs left at least 3 poop balls on my floor...??? he doesnt understand when i tell him he is lying...so i will save that for another day!!!! huuuummmm? My funny boy makes me laugh!!! But poop doesnt thrill me at all!!!

Valentine Poem

Thou art so very sweet and fair,

With such a heaven in thine eyes,

It almost seems an overcare

To ask them to be good or wise.

As if a little bird were blam'd

Because its song unthinking flows;

As if a rose should be asham'd

Of being nothing but a rose.

See the mountains kiss high heaven,

And the waves clasp one another;

No sister flower would be forgiven

If it disdained its brother;

And the sunlight clasps the earth,

And the moonbeams kiss the sea;

What are all these kissings worth,

If thou kiss not me?

author unknown

A Book of Sweethearts

So i know this poem is more likely for a girl, but i could'nt find one for a boy and i am no writer...so this is for valentines day! For my husband who i love very much and my sweet baby boy! I love u both so much thank you for putting up with my and my crazyness!!

Bug!!

Ok...just a funny tidbit from today! I wish i had a picture...Isaac was running through the house yelling "BUG!!!" he had a bug in his room... he was asking me, not the bug person, to come get it. When i said ask your daddy he ran in my room and grabbed a roll of wallpaper, we are about to wallpaper the bathroom, and went running through the house toward the bug. Man i am so happy he is a he and that he is not afraid of bugs. So nice to have a boy!!!

Healthy Food???

Roger and I need to eat healthier!! And lately Isaacs eczema has gotten out of control and his behavior seems to get worse and worse, so we are trying to find what the culprit is. We hope to have him tested for allergies soon, and we are in the process of taking out processed foods!! OMG this is hard everything is processed!! So i am looking for good ideas and needing to find a way to make this a encouraging process....anyway i am not making to much sense so i will go and look for recipes and i am off to the grocery store. Any ideas or recipes are welcome!!

Jesus "Day by Day"

"You will concieve and give birth to a son, and you will call His name JESUS." Luke 1:31 What amazing words... can you imagine hearing those words? What would you think or do? I read the Beth Moore Day by Day devotional ... I love the fact it is a small devotional, but it is no small thought!! Usually it stays with me and i think on it all through the day or longer...That name Jesus, is the name i say, who knows how many times a day in prayer or just talking to Him or others...I can not express how much this name means to me...the words Peace, Savoir, Love, Judgement, Perfect, Forgivness this is just the beginning of the things that go through my mind. He is so BIG and GREAT and Wonderful!!! "You were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God." YOU and ME if you are a child of God You were washed and sanctified and justified in Jesus...How wonderful!! So be Happy (and i am saying this to myself also) and Rejoice in the name of the Lord! He makes all things beautiful...even a mommy whose hair and clothes are a mess, no matter because in His eyes YOU are beautiful!! I love you Lord!!!

Today!!???

Today has been a struggle all day with Isaac, it seems every time i turn around he is screaming and crying and just aggravated. So i will allow him this day. We all have days like that when we scream and cry and are aggravated right? So let the boy be and i will start fresh tomorrow, and hopefully tomorrow will not be like Today!!

History Revisited

Ok, so i wanted to kinda give a bit of history so people can maybe get to know me better....Roger and i have been married for 10 years...Wow that is a long time. It doesn't seem that long. Well maybe some times it does! We worked many jobs before becoming house parents in 2001-2002. We worked at the Kings Ranch in Chelsea, Al. We were there for 4 years. It was a real true growing experience. We often had close to 7 teenage girls in the home at a time, but had no children of our own at the time. We tried for years to get pregnant and finally in 2005 decided after several years of trying that we better find out what was wrong. So off to the doctor we go...I went to the doc and found out that i had lots of cyst on my ovaries. He was concerned so he sent me to a fertility specialist...but in the mean time Roger was having issues to. We found out he had to have surgery to fix the issues he was having...that was a blow, because it would be at least 6 months before everything for him was working right. So I was having test run and found out that i had PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome), also that I was insulin resistant, part of pcos. OUCH! They put me on glucophage and told me to try to eat different and exercise. These things would help the issues pcos causes. They informed me that pcos will never go away and it was something i would have to live with. Also I would not be able to conceive on my own, but with help i had a chance. So, we did what they said, i lost about 40 lbs and roger followed all the instructions on his side. There were lots of doctors visits, taking my blood and weighing me and lots of other things that i didn't know they would do...very odd test and procedures!! I never knew how many people have difficulty getting pregnant until i walked into the office WOW!!! Lots of couples... We used the Art Program in Birmingham, Al. They were great, and the nurses were so kind. After doing all of this things for me still were not working so they told us we would have to do an IUI (intrauterine insemination sp?) I was like "what ?what is that?" But , we did it. We had everyone praying (thanks Dana!!) and were praying ourselves. See what i haven't told you yet is that Roger and I, with all the problems we had only had a 10% chance of conceiving a child. Not only that but women with pcos have a harder time keeping the pregnancy. But God saw it fit to let me get pregnant!! Not only that but the first time we did the cycle. He also saw it fit to allow me to carry the baby full term, literally! Isaac was born January 12, 2006. A beautiful bouncing baby boy!! What joy!! I was due January 13, but induced the 12th. they were afraid Isaac was too big, and apparently he was for me after 14 hours of labor he was born by c-section. We were so excited to finally have a baby!! He is now 3 years old and wild and crazy!! We know from experience that anything is possible, with God. He has given us the privilege of taking care of Isaac. I want to say that if you have problems with conceiving a child, make sure pcos is not the problem. The only reason i ever found out is because my doc recognized the side effects, and believe me there are quite a few. Most of the info we read in books and on the Internet. If you ever have questions about pcos or just need encouragement please feel free to ask.

Feeling Down

You know how it is, sometimes life just feels like you are rowing a boat and getting nowhere!! Today was fine then something happened and i just dropped like a hammer! I know where to go to get what i need....and yet sometimes i will try so hard to find it elsewhere. I'm crazy...sometimes anyway. I trust that my God is strong enough to take on anything and He has already worked it out. So, I will trust in the name of the Lord....and He will renew my strength. He alone will fill what is aching and hurting and replace it with peace. So let me encourage all mom's who feel this way sometimes. Trust in Him, let Him fill that space, and dont fight it so hard.

2:00 in the morning

Well, here i am. This is my first post!!! I am very excited and extremely tired!! It is almost 2 am and i am playing on the computer... O Well... whats new i dont sleep much anyway!! I just laid Isaac back down in bed. He hasn't been sleeping well lately??? Maybe its his daddy snoring in the same room. And yes i said same room...dont ask. We are working on that or will be shortly.